Letter from Janice Moreno to Daya Mata, Ananda Mata, and Mrinalini Mata in Praise of Swami Kriyananda
Dearest Daya Mata, Ananda Mata and Mrinalini Mata,
Our family sends you our deepest love.
It has bean brought to our attention that my name and Namratha’s name were both mentioned during the recent deposition of Kriyananda. I was told the particulars and want to assure you that Julia (Namratha) did not speak nor conspire to speak about SRF to anyone at Ananda, nor to Kriyananda at any time. I was the one that gave him the information about SRF’s taping of others. Julia would never reveal sensitive information about the organization that she faithfully served for forty-one years. She spent hours talking to me on the phone about her new found philosophies, and shortly before leaving Mt. Washington, she phoned me, terrified, because she said Mataji [Ananda Mata] had just warned her that because of the connection I had with Kamala, she was to be careful about what she said to me in regards to SRF policies, due to the law suit with Kriyananda. We both found it sad that Mataji would suspect Julia of such a thing. I have always found her to be totally loyal to SRF. She apologized to me for not defending our family, and said she felt frightened and concerned that she wouldn’t be able to speak to us due to the paranoia of the SRF directors. She commented several times that Master’s words, “….only love will take my place….” seemed long forgotten within the consciousness and actions of the directors. After Julia left Mt. Washington and stayed at our home for a short time, she did speak in depth about her difficulties dealing with Mataji through the years, and it was at that time that she commented to me about the in-house policy of taping others. She informed us several times that she had enough information about unscrupulous behavior within SRF to actually ruin it. We did not pursue this information, and I have no idea what she was referring to, because both Julia and our family were certainly not interested in ruining our beloved guru’s organization. We have not heard from Julia since she left our home, with the exception of two short notes requesting the rest of her belongings that she was initially unable to take to her new destination.
Dearest ones, I wish to write to you some information that I am well aware will be absolutely meaningless to you, and I will, at best, be thought of as a poor misguided soul. For several years I have asked Master if I may speak to you as my conscience dictates, regardless of your responses. To speak to a closed door is quite fruitless, yet my conscience continues to spur me on. The results do not matter because Divine Mother sees the heart.
I have been blessed to know, first hand, three very great disciples of our guru, Durga Mata, Kamala, and Kriyananda. On your part, you might think me quite an idiot, perhaps a triple traitor, or one who just has discrimination. On my part, however, I can only humbly bow at our master’s omnipresent feet in the eternal gratitude of my soul for the graces he has showered upon one of his littlest children to know these great ones, who are, and have been, radiant in God These three lights for Master have shared one thing in common, they have all been, and one is continuing to be, persecuted by those that they love at Mt. Washington. I have watched, first hand, the persecution of these souls, and it reminds me of something Durga told me when I was a child. She said that Master told her that we must all go through a final crucifixion to gain complete freedom in God.
I was blessed by Master to spend a great deal of time with Durga, as a teenager and young woman. She visited my mother and I many times after I left Mt. Washington. As I reflect back, Durga Mata never once, in my presence, spoke in any way, against the SRF president, nor was she disloyal in any action in this regard. She had no desire for power or position, and yet she was persecuted for these things and others, over and over throughout the years. This persecution was evident to all who knew her well, yet she refused to speak of it at anytime. As I watched this great soul sitting in Samadhi, and spent days with her observing the powerful light and love of our Master overflowing through her eyes, it always seemed amazing to me that others could possibly think that this giant in God would want the power existing in the world. Would one want a piece of stale bread when they are dancing within the banquet of the ecstasy of God? How absurd this would be: I could write many pages to you about this saint of Master’s, but I sincerely feel that she would not wish it. It seems sufficient to say that she has melted within Divine Mother and Master’s unending joy and her love is with you always.
Dearest Kamala told me that she had a special vision of master, and he asked her to write her book about him; the book that she was then persecuted for, among other things, by SRF. She has been, throughout my life, a true reflection of Divine Mother. Her pure heart of love and care was always unchanging and unconditional in God, as she gently led me to the feet of our guru. Her divine perceptions and attunement with Master literally saved my life many times, throughout turbulent years of serious physical ill health, when doctors offered no hope. Her nights were spent in ecstasy and the room would fill with such a brilliant light that her husband automatically thought the lamp was on. Each evening, he would enter her room to turn it off only to find that the light was emanating from her body, no lamp was on Through the years, when we had phone conversations, I had to be very careful not to say anything too inspirational, because her devotion was so deep, that with one beautiful. thought, she would be lost in the bliss of God and the conversation would have to be suspended for a time. Her eyes, even now with her mind unwell, are swimming in Divine Mother and Master’s love and joy. Master is her polestar, and she is within his loving arms. Such a great soul to be accused by one SRF monk to have written a book of the devil. I have heard, first hand, horrendous insults said about her from renunciates. Recently, I observed that one innocent SRF devotee, after hearing negative statements from a renunciate in regards to her, is actually hesitant to visit her in the convalescent home, because he is afraid that he will be branded a traitor by SRF. How sad these things must make our master as he watches the shameful discrimination of one who emanates his infinite sweetness and gentle tenderness. This great devotee has always had divine love for you all, regardless of what was done to her. She belongs to Master and God alone, and continues to reflect our guru’s eternal light, love and bliss
Years ago, when I was seventeen, Durga relayed to me sacred secrets about Kriyananda, told to her by either Rajarsi or Master, I’m not sure which one, but the source was Master. I do not know why Durga told me these secrets. It was quite out of character for her particular personality. She was never one to divulge them, especially those given by Master. She had been living at Mt. Washington for only a short time after Rajarsi’s passing, and had not had the opportunity to know Kriyananda personally. Her information about him came directly from Master, and I have not witnessed the incredible power with which she spoke from anyone again in my entire life. She told me about Kriyananda’s excellent character, his great mission to spread our guru’s teachings throughout the world, and his consciousness in God. I remember well that I was almost breathless with awe and disbelief, because I could not fathom how only one individual, who was living at Mt. Washington at the time, could possibly have such a strong impact, and become such a magnificent force for Master within the world. It seemed utterly unimaginable to me. As I looked at her in amazement, she went into greater detail about this humble servant for the Divine. One might compare his life to a dynamic, expansive beacon of light filled with the magnetic power of Master’s love, wisdom, and understanding, and drawing through this mighty light, souls from all corners of the world—hungry souls waiting to receive Master’s teachings and become free at last within his glory. My very being was shaken by the strength of Durga’s words as she ended by telling me about Kriyananda’s spiritual consciousness. She spoke with emphatic clearness that he would be another Rajarsi, with exceptional attributes of holiness, and that his life would be as important to Master’s mission as Rajarsi’s life was. I was stunned, because I knew Durga’s respect for Rajarsi. and the importance of his life in God for Master. To the best of my knowledge, Durga did not speak to anyone else about this, and I have not written to you nor told anyone all the secrets that were relayed to me years ago, and have only recently repeated some of Durga’s comments to a few people.
I know that you probably will not believe one word that I have written to you about Kriyananda, but never-the-less, this information was said, and I have personally observed it to be true. I have heard most every sordid insult about Kriyananda, and can honestly say that I have never found a shred of truth in any of it. Often our family has wished that you would change your policy, go to Ananda and discover first hand what it is really like. Observe the beautiful community of Master’s through your own eyes, and meet the great dedicated souls that are living there for God and guru. Open your hearts to find out for yourselves what Kriyananda is truly like, and if he does call himself a guru, as he has been so unjustly accused. No one is SRF’s enemy, they all want harmony and divine love to reign. Why not join together, in love, as one body within our beloved Master? I was asked by a fellow visitor to Ananda, how Kriyananda was able to accomplish the great work that he has done for Master. They had not seen such love end joy in the faces of devotees before, such genuine caring and spiritual cooperation with others. They felt God and guru’s presence emanating everywhere. This question could be answered in many ways, but to me, an essential quality for spiritual greatness must come from the seed of the true surrendering of heart, mind, and soul to the will of God, and through this holy surrender, the cocoon of spiritual ignorance is broken, and a pure humility and divine courage springs forth within His love. Through the reverent heart of surrender in unconditional love, our Master was able to enter his humble servant and has brought forth numerous, great works, including successful communities in God. Many wonderful souls have been involved in these spiritual endeavors, but they have been started, and are continually guided, through the devotion and attunement of one enlightened devotee, whose only desire is to be perfectly consumed within his beloved guru, allowing the splendor of his radiant light to flow freely through the window of his soul, as he ever lives f or God and guru alone.
Upon reflection, I imagine all three of these great souls that I have written to you about would probably tell me not to bother to speak of them. It is of no real consequence to the two remaining on this earth what others think. They have lived, and are living, to please only Master and give his love to all. I also know that when minds are closed, no amount of talking will change them. However, as mentioned in the beginning of this letter, it is a letter of conscience, a letter filled with undying gratitude to our beloved guru for his mighty blessings that have flooded my soul through these three great channels for the Divine.
In closing, we know there will always be differences in this world. It was not meant to be perfect, as Master has said, but God’s ways are in the power of the opening of the heart in love, freeing the mind through charity and mutual respect to a broader understanding and acceptance of others. A beautiful, stained glass window, designed in many colored hues, all reflect from one beam of light, to form a magnificent whole. It is in this vein of understanding, and in devotion to my guru, that I give you my undying love, respect. and loyalty. I have always upheld you in both word and deed to SRF members; but within my perception, loyalty does not include the persecution of innocent souls; souls who stand as giants in the heart of God. It is then that I must stop and listen deeply to the voice of God echoing clearly within the conscience of my soul, and if necessary, stand completely alone, holding tightly to the hand of the Divine.
In Divine Mother and Master’s endless love and joy,